I have been very random in everything I have been doing on this Monday night, so please excuse me if I jump off topic a little bit. Hope you can keep up. I am sick of people that use their pasts as an excuse for their actions. That is why it is called the past. It's behind you. You are supposed to learn from those experiences and move on with your life. I have been through so much in my life, that you would never know by just looking at me. This is my first time ever telling anybody (now I'm saying it on the world wide web) that I was sexually abused by somebody I was supposed to love (even though that was a lie.)To this day my mom doesn't even now this. For three years of my life, I had to deal with that person. And the year that the abuse finally stopped, me and my mom became homeless. I remember making a promise to my future children that I would never subject them to what I went through. Now, it was just hard as hell for me to write that, because I don't like talking about my past. What I'm trying to say here is that use your past to grow and learn, and teach others that may be going through the same things. DO NOT use it as an excuse for behaviors and problems that you have now. I do not tell people this because I do not want a pity party for when every time somebody sees me. When someone looks at me, I want them to think "Wow, she's an awesome person." God wants me to make the most out of my time here on earth, and that Is what I plan on doing. Go ahead, I know most people that read this that know me personally, are going to go around and tell everyone that they know. But I am to the point to where I don't care anymore. Please let me know when you have found somebody with the perfect life. In conclusion, I'm not saying don't talk to people about your past problems (talking is the best medicine sometimes) but don't dwell on it. Because it WILL overcome you and rule you once again.
XOXO, Nikki Valiant
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